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- Mar 2, 2021
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專訪07 Kalun #我的愛自己是時常提出疑問

Updated: Nov 10, 2021

To love myself is to always ask questions.

Q1.愛自己的定義

Loving myself means…

能夠⾃主，有意識地做出選擇。

Being able to make conscious decisions independently.

在這個資訊過剩的社會，我們很多時都在追求能夠脫離束縛的「條件」或「能⼒」，卻很多時候忘記那個選擇的「意識」。

In this age of information-overload, many of us are pursuing the "conditions" or "ability" to be able to break free, but we often forget the "consciousness" of choice.

比⽅說要努⼒去掙錢、把握各種最新的資訊、然後去⼤家認為「最値得」去的地⽅，買設計「最好」的東⻄等等。

As an example, we work, we earn, then we spend. We find out what the latest and greatest is and believe we’ve made the best-informed choice on the next purchase.

錄像作品《A Normal Norms》

A Normal Norms - single-channel video (HD, color, sound), 9:58 min, 2016

這樣說可能有點消極，⼜或會被認為很⽝儒，也不是說接觸美好的事物或對⽣活有要求是不對，只是個⼈認為在接受或推崇那個「美好」或「要求」之前可以好好思考其實它是個甚麼的東⻄。

That is not to say having standards in life or the desire for quality is a negative attribute. But I personally believe there should be a thought process involved in deciding what is actually good or desirable, whether you are promoting or on the receiving-end of such ideas.

A Normal Norms - single-channel video (HD, color, sound), 9:58 min, 2016

畢竟單單把抱負，功利作為⽣活動⼒的話，這樣⼈⽣的成就感就會變成履行完事。

Afterall, if ambition and success are the only things that motivate you, then your life achievements are nothing more than fulfillments in life.

A Normal Norms * exhibition view: 17th Media Art Biennale WRO 2017 DRAFT SYSTEMS

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Q2. 不愛自己的狀態

Not loving myself is...

個⼈很不愛接受事物的既定狀態或價値，⼜或者是被⾃⼰不認同的價值觀牽引著。

I hate having to accept the stated description/value of things, or even worse, being led-on by something I absolutely disagree with.

攝影混合媒介作品《rose is a rose is a rose is a rose》

rose is a rose is a rose is a rose - archival pigment prints (various sizes, framed & mounted on dibond), lightbox, uv prints on plexiglass, 2016

不過單純地以批判思維以否定作前提來認識世界也不是⾃⼰理想的狀態。我認為比較好的狀態是好奇⼼跟批判思維得到平衡吧，畢竟抱著疑問來認識各種東⻄會更能好好了解各種想法。

It’s also not feasible to naively critique each and everything you come across in life. I believe in finding a balance between one’s curiosity and critical thoughts. Afterall, curiosity is essential when trying to better understand the world.

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Q3. 愛自己的生活模式

The lifestyle of loving myself...

時常提出疑問。

Always ask questions.

不論工作、作品、生活也好，它們都應該是個疑問，而不是個答案。而且個人認為有著擁抱錯誤，而非回避的心態也很重要。

Everything in life should be a question and not an answer. I also believe we must have the capacity to embrace our mistakes. Don’t hide from it.

有時候，挖個洞跳進去可以看到不一樣的景色。雖然偶然也會有花很多時間才能爬回來的時候。(笑)

Occasionally, you might find a different view if you dig a hole deep enough. Although the journey back up might take quite some time. (LOL)

商業作品短片《True Story of Michaela Metesová》

Commercial short film - True Story of Michaela Metesová

自己在商業攝影工作發展正盛的時候去了波蘭讀藝術，不經不覺就住了四年，然後搬到現在住的東京又一年半了。雖然多少也會令人覺得這樣的事業「半途而廢」又或「不夠專注」。

I left for Poland to study art at the height of my commercial photography career. Four years flashed by before I again relocated to my current home in Tokyo, where I’ve been for a year and a half. I am aware that some people think I threw my career away or that I lack focus.

然而我自己認為，作為一個創作者，不應該對自己的「資本」過份重視。或者換過角度說，創作者的「資本」不應該是過去擁有的東⻄，而是屬於對未知領域渴求的心態。

In my view, a creative person shouldn't place too much stock in what they have already achieved. A thirst for the unknown should be what’s driving you.

畢竟最好的作品都應該是未出現的，將來的東⻄。當然因為各種環境因素不可能那麼順利，不過至少要抱著這個想法。

The best ideas and pieces have yet to appear. It might be a struggle but you have to persist.

商業作品短片《True Story of Zachar Szerstobitow》

Commercial short film - True Story of Zachar Szerstobitow